A place I write about my personal and professional life, sharing experiences and an occasional rant about anything and everything that comes to my head. Thanks for visiting!

Why did I start writing again?

"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end"
This quote so far has proven to be true. How do I quantify and when do I call an end ? I still have a lot of unanswered questions. I don't have anyone to ask, but myself. I am not giving up until I find answers. Its a trait I've born all my life- Not giving up.
I've been asking, don't I have a wish for myself ? can't convince people into relationships; does everyone happen to wait for that one relationship ? Why should I let myself down because she said NO to me.. Why is it not that easy to reciprocate ?


A lot of people have asked me the reason the last two articles... I've been asking myself and I'm yet to figure out an answer...

Off lately, I notice my vocabulary has improved to a certain extent.... May be this blog is helping achieve it ? I am inclined to think so as this is a place where I can write my mind. May be that is why I want to write again.... I want to express myself and reduce the burden that keeps growing... At times, my life feels outstripped without her..

Since the last couple of months, to my surprise, there are time windows in my personal time ( I hear ya, it is scimpy!) when I feel good for her..

I have seen and learnt over time, I am not good at maintaining relationships.. I make friends, and when I move on, from the place or position, I tend to lose touch with them. This is evident and is quite obvious.

When I moved out of School, when i moved out of college, out of Jaipur, out of Chennai, out of Newton, out of Toronto, out of Sadikhov.. Every where I lost invaluable relations- friends, mentors, teachers, colleagues, peers,... The list is never ending..

You may ask what difference does this make ? Well, it doesn't to an introvert like me; it does to all those people who were with me...

But with her it was never the same.. I wanted her- I was desperate, I really didn't want to make the same mistake I did with every other relation in my life.... But He thought otherwise.....

Her status says 'married' in Orkut... I wante something big to fill the void... Relocation to Banglore did help, the new account, new transition, challenges all helped. Alas, the void was bigger than I imagined...

I am trying to make new relations... Turning into a more intensive spendthrift, vanity, luxury, madly hungry for knowledge and I realise the number of people who like me as a person, is growing smaller....

If you ask an introvert, me in this case, this is awesome news!! No one to talk to, no to worry about, a care free- don't give a damn lifestyle is what I'm getting to..

The reason I started writing could be a resultant. I strongly believe in Dec 21, 2012. I hope if not the whole world, at least to my level something changes, dramatically- overnight...

Miracles!!!!! I just love'm. I guess I wanted to put on a happy face so she is relieved to move on.. Now that she has, who the heck is gonna stop me
You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you.

Laterz, Peace..
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