"An angel is someone who helps you believe in miracles again!"
She was mine. She helped me believe, I have feelings, I can cry and feel pain. She let me have the best relationship I ever had in my whole life. She taught me care, she herself was a miracle..
She made me feel as if I was God. She believed I could change her life, give her happiness, kept faith in me that I would do miracles for her too. I failed her. I failed my angel. God may forgive me, she might too; I can’t.
We both believed in miracles. I never thought I would be so desperate for a miracle after the breakup. I always believed in hard work and will power. Accomplishing the impossible has never been a big deal for me. I’ve been a failure and I’ll never be able to show all my love to anyone else.. My heart beckons caution, lack of self confidence and a losing attitude.
I am worrying a lot about her off lately and I don’t have a clue what she is up to. Is she sad, happy, worried, joyful, glad.. ? I don’t know and I don’t have a way to find out because she doesn’t share anything with anyone else except herself. Everyone who see her or work with her can only see the fake face she puts up to satisfy others, deep inside, what she feels, no one can tell except me. There were a lot of things she told only to me for the first and last time.
All I do is pray that she will move on, forgive me, be happy, get the best of a soul mate who understands and cares for her. She is too good to be with me. I would happier than ever if she is actually getting rid of me and settling down with her fiancé. My heart is less heavier now. Peace